The Right Track

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10 Weeks. It has been 10 solid weeks since I had Grayson and things still feel out of sorts. There still isn't a solid routine or schedule. Our bedroom is still a temporary (I hope) baby squatting zone. My house is still in a state of "I had a baby and can almost -but not quite- keep up with the clutter" mess. And my belly still looks 12+ weeks pregnant.

Okay, more like 18 weeks pregnant.

But anyway. Here is the kicker.

It is okay.

Yes, I am coming to the realization that this seemingly off balance lifestyle may actually be -gasp- perfectly level.

And completely foreign to me.

Only it isn't, because if I really look back far into my memory, I can distinctly remember the same feelings after I had Sophie. Yup, I felt the same way after having my ONE baby. Oh, poor naive past Courtney. Future Courtney wishes she could tell you how much simpler things are with just one.

But to get back on the subject, I am finally reaching that point where enough is enough and just like I did after Sophia, I am slowly stepping it up and getting my life back onto a track that I feel comfortable and more in control of. And who cares if the new track is a lot bumpier than my past tracks?

The scenery is so much sweeter. 


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8 comments

  1. JKLSeptember 22, 2011 at 10:33 PM

    I really enjoyed this post. You rarely share this side of yourself. Go you. Miss you.

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  2. Momma4lifeSeptember 22, 2011 at 10:44 PM

    Awww He is so sweet :)

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  3. BrittanySeptember 23, 2011 at 12:42 AM

    Oh Yes. We have 3 now. My youngest is 9 1/2 Weeks. I think back to times when I had one or two and want to slap my past self for ever complaining. All that free time! It was so easy! And now not only do I have 2 under 2 I have a sassy 4 year old also. But I just love feeling more experienced. Trust that. You 're doing more right than you think. You got this. It's all good. Two is an adjustment, but you'll get there. Wait til they actually play alone together you wont know what to do with your happiness and 'spare time'!!

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  4. AnonymousSeptember 23, 2011 at 5:42 AM

    I LOVE this! I have an 8 month at 32, and before her I had my life under "control" and basically knew what I was doing on a day to day basis... work, graduate school, social life. After her I was lost for a while trying to figure it all out. I would say to others "sorry, I don't feel like myself today". I is strange to be thrown off but so wonderful at the same time. Support and encouragement in motherhood makes all the difference, and I know you have that! People would say that I was still adjusting to motherhood, and I appreciated the time to adjust. As I follow your journey, I see myself often. Allow yourself time to adjust, girly! Lots of love and hugs from one mother to another.

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  5. UnknownSeptember 23, 2011 at 1:44 PM

    Very sweet post.Your babies are adorble! I love your Youtube videos and now found your blog and love this now too. =)

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  6. 4little1sSeptember 26, 2011 at 1:18 AM

    Your little ones are so lovely, very sweet post, thanks for sharing.

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  7. SamanthaSeptember 28, 2011 at 6:26 PM

    You're right! The scenery is sweeter! You have two lovely children, and the clutter just means they're making memories. :)

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  8. UnknownOctober 23, 2011 at 5:54 PM

    I know how you feel. My daughter turned one this week and it seems that it gets harder and harder everyday to finish laundry and do a lot of things that the kids need.
    It is fun on the other hand. I don't think that I would ever want to change anything about having my children.

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